The other day, my husband opened his hand and told me to look. There on his palm were several perfect acorns – little tiny ones. We laughed because they were so cute. Then we began looking around at the hundred year old Live Oaks that surrounded us and began to wonder at the fact that those huge beautiful trees, replete with Spanish moss, daintily draped from their branches, began their lives as acorns. Is an acorn an oak tree then?
Some would argue that an acorn is just a seed and that a seed is not a tree. But is that true? Life, I say, it’s all part of life, of creation. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? Which came first, the oak tree or the acorn? Does anyone want to venture an answer – because I don’t know. Can you make an oak tree without an acorn, and would there be acorns without oaks? At what point does an acorn stop being a seed and begin to be a tree? Again, I say that it’s all part of God’s endless cycle of life.
The Big Question
Now for the big question – when does an embryo become a human? Some say that it’s not a person until it comes out of the womb and can breathe on it’s own. So, does that mean that we, as human beings, are only considered human beings because we have lungs? Embryos have lungs. Which came first, the embryo or the “human?” Who can even answer that except by acknowledging the part God plays in Creation? Yes, I’ll say it again, it’s all a part of God’s endless cycle of life, of creation.
Jeremiah 1:4-5 (NKJV) says, “Then the word of the Lord came to me, saying: Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations. God planned a wonderful life for each one of us while he created us – before pregnancy! None of us is an accident, no matter what circumstances we were conceived under.
Believe it or not, even as we wind our way through this chaotic life, doing the best that we can, our lives are meant to fulfill God’s plans for us – “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you…” In other words, an embryo contains everything needed to form an adult human being’s whole life. It is a human being! The way I see it, at no time is it okay to scrape and vacuum out an embryo, killing the life it contains – already a living person. No matter how you want to look at that, it’s murder.
I am not an arrogant person, judging and condemning girls and women who choose to have abortions. I’m one of them, I know how that choice feels and I don’t believe anyone wants to feel that they have to make that choice and go through the horrible mixed feelings of relief and grief. But that doesn’t change what it is – it’s wrong! It’s against God’s intimate plan for every embryo, every fetus, every baby, every adult and every potential that they represent. I am a Christian and though I’ve been through it myself I know abortion is a sin.
The Good News
The good news is that when Jesus died on the cross for us and was resurrected three days after, He paid the full price for all of our sins – past, present and future. There’s the real choice, the choice to accept that forgiveness from Jesus, just by asking for it. Ask Him to come into your life, to be your friend, your Savior. That will be the best choice, the most important choice, you will ever make.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! – Psalms 139:13 (NIV).
I happen to think Christians are sinning when they judge, condemn, hate, and commit acts of violence against women who do choose abortion, and their doctors also. God doesn’t want that! His very nature is LOVE – for everyone. Christians should know that! I believe that we should be loving and supportive and provide easily accessible services and care for women who find themselves pregnant and unsure of what to do. Yes, Christian counseling, without judgment or condemnation. No, not to perform abortions when a woman chooses that service.
We, as Christians, need to provide education to hopefully, someday, end unwanted pregnancies, counseling, to help a woman make one of the most difficult choices of her life, support for those who choose to put their babies up for adoption, and on and on. In other words, we Christians need to put our money where our collective mouths are!
So, where do I stand personally – with my own choice to abort my child? I regret, with every fiber of my being, that I allowed some stranger to stick a vacuum between my legs and suck that tiny life, that tiny human being out of my womb! I paid him money to kill a baby which I saw on an ultra sound, waving its little arms and kicking its little legs; I SAW that and still I went through with the abortion.
My grief was immense, I thought I would tear my heart out. I screamed and pounded on the walls as I realized that I had actually murdered my baby. My womb felt desolate, my stomach was nauseous, I was empty and there was no way to get my baby back – my son or daughter!
I still mourn the loss of that baby, I still cry over my decision to abort – the decision I made when I was young and stupid. I vowed to myself then that I had better not get pregnant again, unless I was willing, and hopefully desirous, of keeping the child I helped conceive. I will NEVER go through that agony again!! Education, education, education, and repentance!
When I became born again and asked Jesus to forgive all my sins; I knew that He would tell me, “Daughter, you are already forgiven, take My hand and give Me all your grief, your pain, your hurts. Give Me your loneliness and disillusionment with life. Give it all to Me. I died so that you would not have to carry your heavy loads – I will carry them for you. Just open your heart to My love and I will make your heart whole by My presence within you.” “The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit.” – Psalms 34:17-18.
Jesus has lived up to all His promises to me and so much more. His presence in my life gives me peace and joy unspeakable! Is my life always easy – no! Do I still have heartaches and difficult choices to make sometimes? – yes! This earth is no longer the Garden of Eden!
But, I think that it’s vital for the women who struggle with the choice of whether or not to have an abortion, to know that the first choice they can and should make is to develop a loving, personal relationship with Jesus. He will guide you, lead you in your decisions, help you. He will never judge you. He will never leave you or forsake you and He will love you beyond your understanding. He died a cruel death on the Cross so that you can have the forgiveness and the freedom to make choices – hopefully choices that are in alignment with His Spirit.
The fruits of God’s Holy Spirit are: love, peace, joy, patience, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control. His Spirit shows us that when there is a choice between life and death, we need to choose life!
In a perfect world there would be no need, or desire for abortions. In a perfect world there would be no death at all. Unfortunately, we do not live in a perfect world, so death does ultimately prevail. As a Christian, that, to me, still does not justify abortion. Do I hate the women who have abortions? Certainly not – how hypocritical that would be! Do I pray they would make a choice for life? Of course I do! Do I recognize that women need a viable alternative to abortion? Yes, I do. Do I think Christians should take a more active role in providing those alternatives? I do!
For myself, I believe an acorn is an oak tree, and I believe that even a tiny cluster of cells implanted on the wall of a woman’s womb is a human being, a God created human being. And I believe that human being deserves the chance to fulfill God’s destiny for them. That’s what I believe!
God bless you all!